a little help from my friends

I wasn't going to post today, I've been feeling a little bit down and miserable and wanting to hide. Then my friend Umaima sent me this e-mail. I thought I couldn't ignore it. There's no point in pretending your something your not and I just felt I should post this beacuse I am a real person, not a robot stuck in happy mode all the time. The fact is, I may be happy most of the time but then I have my moments. Everyone does. Friendship means letting other people see your bad bits instad of trying to hide them away.

Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the homework..

and the incessant forwards and the friendships

and the calls to each other complaining about CrUsHeS

and BF/GF!! Somewhere between the phone calls to oldfriends and the "I miss you's",

the "I love you's" andthe "What are we doing tonight's?"

And somewhere between all of the changing and growing...

somewhere between the classes and the skippingclasses...

and the StUdYiNg for teStS...

And thePRETENDING to "StUdY" for TeStS...

And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS...

I forgot--I forgot what ScHooL was all about.

Somewhere between all the appointments, starbucks or BO'S coffee,

and McDonald's... paying bills and then not paying bills...

Making plans then breaking plans...

Appearing, Disappearing, then reappearing...

I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry.

I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy...

A nd that pretending tobe SmArT doesn't make you smart ..

I forgot that you can't just forget the past infear of the FUTURE...

I forgot that you can't control falling in LoVe..

And that you can't make yourself fall in *LoVe*.... I learned that I can LOVE...

I learned that it's okay to MEsS UP.... And it's okay to ask for HELP!!!..

And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN

and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day........

I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have

and the things that you look for are right in front of you.

I learned that the greatest thing about HiGh ScHOoL and CoLLeGe

and the working world it isn't about the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the Hookups ...
It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking chances.

I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget

are the things which we most need to talk about...

I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things...

I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does!

...but with the love and support of friends - you survive...

I've learned that when you start feeling BaD about L O S I N G touch

and about those that you've lost!

They too, are feeling the same way....
I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.

And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better!

But, basically, I just learned that my friends........

Both old and new.....

are the most important people to me in the world AND

.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today