The death toll this morning- another 2 dead ones and 2 live ones. This is a nightmare! (although for them our church is a little mousey paradise!) With a building this big its impossible to suss out where they are comming from. There's enough food for them lying round for them in this place, nowonder they are here. Yesterday I went through the fairtrade cupboard and discovered that they are particularly partial to devine milk chocolate- they have taste! On of my collegues joked that if they are only eating the chocolate then they must be female. Deborah's suggestion was that they might be having chocolate cravings because they are pregnant. I really hope not!
I could really have done without this the week before kids club but I guess on the plus side, I'm having to clean every last millimeter of this church maticulously. By the time I'm done, this place will be sparkling.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Mouse Watch
At the request of the lovely Miss Wong- welcome to the world of mousewatch. For those who are unaware, there is arevival going on at my church- a revival on a mass scale. Unfortunately, it is a revival of mice. Along the deep dark corners around the church and around the parish you will the little critters gunning for world domination- Do not be fooled by their cute little furry noses.
A charter of war has been declared against the present rodent community and rest assured I will win!
A charter of war has been declared against the present rodent community and rest assured I will win!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Apologies for being useless- I haven't blogged in aaages!!! I started writing a post on the problem of pain but got a little distrcted by 'Where is God when it hurts' by Philip Yancey (as you do). If you haven't read it I recomend you do.
So exams are over and I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself for the next couple of months. I need to find somewhere to live and I need to find a job. I'm not very good at having ucertainties hanging over my head and at the moment there seems to be a lot of big ones. I don't like being in a state of limbo, I like to keep busy, to be useful but I guess every now and then you are forced to slow down. Yesterday to keep myself busy I thought I'd give the house a tidy. In the process of washing up I managed to break a glass and slice my finger- it was very exciting. I'll spare you the gory details but it was bleeding for over an hour and to look at it now it really doesn't look all that impressive. Today my house is still in a mess and everything is taking twice as long to do because of my finger. Needless to say, this is not good potatoes. In general I want everything to be done by yesterday but what is the hurry? It isn't like I have a fully packed schedule for the next few days.
So exams are over and I'm trying to figure out what to do with myself for the next couple of months. I need to find somewhere to live and I need to find a job. I'm not very good at having ucertainties hanging over my head and at the moment there seems to be a lot of big ones. I don't like being in a state of limbo, I like to keep busy, to be useful but I guess every now and then you are forced to slow down. Yesterday to keep myself busy I thought I'd give the house a tidy. In the process of washing up I managed to break a glass and slice my finger- it was very exciting. I'll spare you the gory details but it was bleeding for over an hour and to look at it now it really doesn't look all that impressive. Today my house is still in a mess and everything is taking twice as long to do because of my finger. Needless to say, this is not good potatoes. In general I want everything to be done by yesterday but what is the hurry? It isn't like I have a fully packed schedule for the next few days.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Patience is a virtue
Yesterday I was at a wedding. A couple of friends of mine from my homegroup at church finally tied the knott. Despite the oh so lovely rain it was a wonderful wedding. I don't think I've ever seen Lizzy looking so radient and as as for Ben, he had this wide smile on his face all day.
They had asked me to sing In Christ alone during the signing of the regesters and I cannot tell you how nervous I was. I'm no stranger to singing in public but weddings are different, its someone's big day so you really don't want to mess it up! (not that you'd want to particularly want to mess it up in general but you get what I mean) I was absouloutely fine during the service, I walked to the back of the church during the last hymn to stand by baby grand piano and yet the nerves were still kept at bay. That was until the accompanist started playing the introduction. From then on the lower part of my body felt like the consistancy of jelly and it didn't help that one of my friends had told me she was going to film me just before I started singing. I gazed at the congregation and lo and behold, there was this camcorder pointed in my direction. Nerves aside, I thouroughly enjoyed it. I love weddings, I love being part of someone's special day and whitnessing the couple making promises before their friends, their family eahother and ultimately before God. To be asked to sing just was being asked to participate in their day and to be able to do that for two people you care about is a very special thing, to be an active part of the celebration.
And a celebration it was. Ben and Lizzy had known eachother for so long. They initially started going out together when they were twelve and had been serious about eachother for the last five years. 14 years is a very long time. I can remember when Ben was working down in Bristol two years ago, Lizzy was sat in our home group asking us to pray for patience. She really wanted to get married but it wasn't the right time. A year later, Ben had moved back to London and had planned this elaborate proposal for Lizzy and she didn't have a clue. Yesterday they got married. I am humbled and astounded by Lizzy's patience. I look at my life now and see something that is very messy and very patchy because at the moment I can't see the complete picture. And yet I'm itching to shee what the complete picture looks like. I don't know how things are going to pan out in my life and I lack the patience see how things will work out.
I'm going to be 24 next week which really scares me. I remember when I was little thinking that I'd get married when I was 24 and would have 4 kids and would be this amazing career woman as a graphics designer. Ok so I don't want to be a graphics designer and maybe 4 kids is a bit much but would I like to get married one day? Yes I would. Where I am at the moment, marrage is a long way off, maybe wont happen either. I've always felt able to trust God in who I end up marrying but since I split with my ex I have realised that I haven't been able to trust God with the possibility of staying single. I still have issues from the breakup, its as if it has left me covered in a layer of grime that gradually I'm trying to clean off. No one can see the real me yet, how I should be but gradually as I work through my issues you begin to see scratches in this layer of grime and you start so see something shining through. That is the stage I am at at the moment and it could well be a long process for so many reasons and I know that God has perfect timeing. Do I relly believe that in my heart though? Do I really have the patience to let God work in me? I find it so hard to in all honesty. But I do know God hasn't finished with me yet. I just need to have a little patience.
They had asked me to sing In Christ alone during the signing of the regesters and I cannot tell you how nervous I was. I'm no stranger to singing in public but weddings are different, its someone's big day so you really don't want to mess it up! (not that you'd want to particularly want to mess it up in general but you get what I mean) I was absouloutely fine during the service, I walked to the back of the church during the last hymn to stand by baby grand piano and yet the nerves were still kept at bay. That was until the accompanist started playing the introduction. From then on the lower part of my body felt like the consistancy of jelly and it didn't help that one of my friends had told me she was going to film me just before I started singing. I gazed at the congregation and lo and behold, there was this camcorder pointed in my direction. Nerves aside, I thouroughly enjoyed it. I love weddings, I love being part of someone's special day and whitnessing the couple making promises before their friends, their family eahother and ultimately before God. To be asked to sing just was being asked to participate in their day and to be able to do that for two people you care about is a very special thing, to be an active part of the celebration.
And a celebration it was. Ben and Lizzy had known eachother for so long. They initially started going out together when they were twelve and had been serious about eachother for the last five years. 14 years is a very long time. I can remember when Ben was working down in Bristol two years ago, Lizzy was sat in our home group asking us to pray for patience. She really wanted to get married but it wasn't the right time. A year later, Ben had moved back to London and had planned this elaborate proposal for Lizzy and she didn't have a clue. Yesterday they got married. I am humbled and astounded by Lizzy's patience. I look at my life now and see something that is very messy and very patchy because at the moment I can't see the complete picture. And yet I'm itching to shee what the complete picture looks like. I don't know how things are going to pan out in my life and I lack the patience see how things will work out.
I'm going to be 24 next week which really scares me. I remember when I was little thinking that I'd get married when I was 24 and would have 4 kids and would be this amazing career woman as a graphics designer. Ok so I don't want to be a graphics designer and maybe 4 kids is a bit much but would I like to get married one day? Yes I would. Where I am at the moment, marrage is a long way off, maybe wont happen either. I've always felt able to trust God in who I end up marrying but since I split with my ex I have realised that I haven't been able to trust God with the possibility of staying single. I still have issues from the breakup, its as if it has left me covered in a layer of grime that gradually I'm trying to clean off. No one can see the real me yet, how I should be but gradually as I work through my issues you begin to see scratches in this layer of grime and you start so see something shining through. That is the stage I am at at the moment and it could well be a long process for so many reasons and I know that God has perfect timeing. Do I relly believe that in my heart though? Do I really have the patience to let God work in me? I find it so hard to in all honesty. But I do know God hasn't finished with me yet. I just need to have a little patience.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Happiness, Happiness, the greatest gift that I possess
Pretty much all of the songs I've written have been really depressing- either a depressing version of Alanis Morrisette or a happy version of Radiohead. Anywhoo, my housemate Debs challenged me to write a happy song so thats what I'm doing- huzzah! I'll post up lyrics once I finish it.
In the meantime I have loads of bits and pieces to be getting on with. So short but sweet for today.
In the meantime I have loads of bits and pieces to be getting on with. So short but sweet for today.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Footprints
Did I leave any footprints in your life?
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
just erase your memories
Its easier after all
And why should you notice
What was my contribution to anyone?
Barely a picture of a former me
Noone likes the shadows
I don't want to bring you down
Its just simpy easier to hide
Its not like anyone would notice anyway
Would I really me missed?
Did I leave any footprints in your life
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
I'm staring at blank walls
There must be more than this?
And why can't I cry my tears
No one sees anyway
And how could I ever tell you
how you make me feel
How could I ever say
why are you never there for me?
Did I leave anf footprints in your life
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
For everyone else you're dependable
But you're never there for me
I'll fend for myself somehow
Its what I usually do
Its what I'm expected to do
Did I leave any footprints?
I don't think I did
If i had I wouldn't be alone now
I shouldn't be here
Did I leave any footprints?
none of you seem to notice
Did I leave any foot prints?
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
Did i leave any footprints?
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
just erase your memories
Its easier after all
And why should you notice
What was my contribution to anyone?
Barely a picture of a former me
Noone likes the shadows
I don't want to bring you down
Its just simpy easier to hide
Its not like anyone would notice anyway
Would I really me missed?
Did I leave any footprints in your life
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
I'm staring at blank walls
There must be more than this?
And why can't I cry my tears
No one sees anyway
And how could I ever tell you
how you make me feel
How could I ever say
why are you never there for me?
Did I leave anf footprints in your life
Did you take the time to look?
You didn't even notice
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
For everyone else you're dependable
But you're never there for me
I'll fend for myself somehow
Its what I usually do
Its what I'm expected to do
Did I leave any footprints?
I don't think I did
If i had I wouldn't be alone now
I shouldn't be here
Did I leave any footprints?
none of you seem to notice
Did I leave any foot prints?
Just erase your memories
Its easier afterall
Did i leave any footprints?
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