Time:3:40pm
Where:home missing lecture
Drinking:Tea
Wearing:Jeans and hoodie
Thinking:I hate life
Listening to :Fix you by coldplay (I know coldplay is a little depressing but go with me on this one)
That song could be the sound track of my life at the moment. I feel really low and I'm trying to piece together all the shards of my life. I was talking to the college chaplain earlier and he said that God's not going to let me go. I believe that I really do. (this is where stubbornness comes in handy). I know he wont. It just sometimes helps to have someone else say it.
I'd never paid so much attention to the lyrics before and they just seem to really speak into the situation that I'm in right now, how I'm thinking, how I'm feeling. I feel really strongly that these lyrics would be what God is trying to say to me right now.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
